For so long I believed

For so long I believed

that I was a barren landscape

lost in the wilderness of my mind

trapped between dust storms

which pushed in each direction

leaving my body to float through life

as a shell.


Your words caught in my hair

and slipped into my ears

those few sentences

which washed away the emptiness.


The tears in my eyes

are not for joy

but for sorrow

for the emptiness I lost.


I loved the hollow

I loved the empty

I loved the simplicity

of being absent

from reality.


The emotions are turmoil

tearing into the world around me.

Reality is too harsh

to angular

not like the angelic blur I thought it was.


My soul aches

my body knows

my mind disintegrates
and I’m no longer beautiful.